About This Blog

In April 2011, my oncologist gave me 12-18 months to live. Shortly thereafter, I decided to discontinue all cancer treatments. I have discovered that there is very little information on the Internet about what happens between the time someone discontinues treatment and the time that they die. For this reason, I have decided to keep a journal through this blog, supported by Twitter and Facebook, about how I am doing physically, mentally and emotionally as the cancer spreads throughout my body and eventually kills me.

I will be very candid and exceedingly intimate so you can appreciate what it is really like to be dying. If you are faced with the same situation, I hope it will help you to know what you may be facing. If you are watching a loved one go through this, perhaps you will be better equipped to provide the kind of understanding and support they need. If you are one of those wonderful people who work in hospice or palliative care, I hope it will provide some insight that will help you better understand the people who are under your care. 

I will also be exploring a wide variety of ideas and beliefs about life and death from the perspective of someone who is getting ready to face their own death. Please join me on this journey.

36 comments:

Cheryl said...

Doug.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

I commend you on speaking up about what you are experiencing. As our world moves faster and we try to keep up we tend to let things slide. These are the things we often regret later.

Cheryl

Anonymous said...

doug i saw your story at citytv, i'm touched i can tell your a hardworking man that loves his family dearly, it made me extremely sad and think about life and death. i pray that the pain you receive goes away.

dcamarda said...

Hi,
I just saw a clipping of you being interviewed with CityTV News.

I realize it is a hard time for you.

I wanted to send you some comforting scriptures that will be a source of encouragement at this time Revelation 21:4 talks about a time in the near future that God promises their will be no more death & mourning or pain any more. Psalms 37:29 talks about the righteous will possess the earth & live forever upon it. God's word promises that even those that die, will come back to life & then continue living without living ever again. John 5:28,29. For more information please visit jw.org & download the book called "What Does the Bible Really Teach?" Chapter 6 answers the question "Where are the dead" & Chapter 7 answers "Real hope for your loved one who have died". I guarantee that you will find this information very encouraging.

Anonymous said...

My father is going through the same illness right now with an expected two months to live. Like him, you are an absolute inspiration and I am in awe. the things we think are important - really are not, and the things we didn't think of often enough become the priorities we don't want to let go of.
I pray for your comfort and peace. You will leave behind such a legacy that your family will be so proud of.
wishing you peace.

Anonymous said...

Dear Doug,

A member of our family is also presently experiencing a terminal illness. When I saw your story on CityTV... I felt compelled to write to you. Someone once told me to always remember that... while life is short... LOVE... is long. The love you have shared in your life will not soon be forgotten by those you have touched. My thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

Hello Doug,

I saw your story also in City news. I am a moslem, I strongly beleive that there will be a happiness and unlimited joy when we die( if we are good people).

I had the experience a lot in my dreams...I ONLY pray for you and wish that you will notice the pain less. However miracles can happen and I really will pray for you to be the one who experience miracle too. God bless you.

Anonymous said...

Hello Doug, I saw your story on CityNews. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
My father is currently having lung cancer treatment and I know that my time is short with him, this scares me.
Thank you so much for sharing your story via City TV and your journal, your posts will help in understanding each others emotions and providing support.
God bless you.

Anonymous said...

I believe the fundamental model of living and working has to change.

Instead of working 5 days a week, maybe we should work 4 days a week ? Possibly making less, but do we really need to drive down the street to grab something when we can stroll down and smell the roses?

Maybe, just maybe, by working a day less, we can have a bit more time to contemplate on life itself ?

Charles McAfee said...

Diane, I was listening to City City and when Doug's name (and yours) was mentioned I was dumbfounded, Doug was still young and obviously young at heart.

I was telling my youngest son about the time we spent together many years ago.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

Charles McAfee
cmcafee@rogers.com

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