I wrote this a while back in a small notebook I often carry around for the purpose, and thought I would share it with you. Just some musings on life and what's important....
Our memories are no different than what is written in history books. They are a "recording" of something that happened. Our recollections may even be different from someone else's recollection of the same event, but they are still just recordings of something that may have happened. They're gone now, so they don't have the "substance" of the here and now. So, in a sense, the future is also the same thing. Something will happen, but it has no substance in the here and now. Even fictional stories (books, movies, etc.) are similar in that they document an event with no real substance. So what does this mean? It means that the only thing that matters, that has substance and reality, is what you are doing right now. The past, the future and your favorite movie are not important. You can't act on them, interact with them or "do" them. All that is important is now - what you are doing and who you may be doing it with or to. Isn't it worth doing something meaningful?
We cannot change our past. We cannot change our future. We cannot change the fact that we are going to die and, once we die, we are no longer a part of this reality. In a 100 years, no one will be alive who knew us or ever interacted with us. We are gone like every human being who ever lived is gone. Nothing we have done, with few exceptions, makes a significant difference to the future reality. So if you want to know what the purpose of life is, it is just about living every moment for all it's worth, focusing on the tiny microcosm of time and existence that you have and that you share with others. That's it. Make the most of it. Make the very best of it. And have no regrets. While this may sound like a cliché, it is. Sometimes a cliché is just a very simple truth.
Tried to stay up some more the last couple of days - trying to have a bit of a life. Got some things done which made me feel good, but paying for it now with fatique. Some pain back too. Oh well.